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Can't hold it in any longer

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 02:38:06 GMT

I know this probably comes as a bit of a surprise to everyone, but over Spring Break while at Busch Gardens, I proposed to Xandy. The ring I gave her was actually kinda big so she's wearing it on a gold chain for now lol. Hopefully we'll fix that soon.

So I guess that kinda makes Animazement our Engagement Party? Well it'll be a party for sure anyway lol.

Animazement

Sat, 25 Aug 2007 22:04:57 GMT

I have just reserved 1 room with 2 double beds. One bed is completely taken no exceptions. Anyone else wanna bunk with me? And I hope you don't have a problem with any displays of affection (nothing unsightly) I have with my girlfriend either.

So called friends

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 21:55:39 GMT

I'm getting a little tired of my so called friends who make no effort to contact me for weeks and even months. After weeks and months of hearing nothing from them, and not going out anywhere because usually you wanna go out with friends, I give in to desperation and try and do something with them. Half the time I feel like I'm intruding on what they were gonna do with their friends. Is it me? I mean am I not liked by anyone and the only bone they throw me when I have to practically beg is because they pity me? I dunno I just feel like I don't have any real friends when I have to make a real effort to try and hang out with the people I thought were my friends. It's gotten to a point that with some people I just don't wanna bother anymore cause I know it's just gonna feel awkward. I understand if people are busy in the middle of the week and all, and aren't free for some weekends. But I have a feeling at least half the people I know have already gone to so Pirates 3. I wouldn't know for sure because I don't get calls or emails or IMs to go out and do anything. Was the big cookout at my place last year just to take advantage of a free and private area to meet up and eat food? I figured it was a show of friendship but now I have to wonder.

Watch it before it gets deleted by YouTube!

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 22:24:48 GMT

GARO: Fanged Wolf, the Golden Makai Knight

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 04:40:08 GMT

This is not a Toku for kids. That's right, Toku ain't just your runofthemill Kamen Rider and Super Sentai. They do other stuff as well. I'm almost done downloading it fansubbed from TVNihon. Anyone interested in getting together and watching some?

Lord of the Steak?

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 16:38:03 GMT

Anime and Game Soundracks

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 20:52:42 GMT

For those of you still in the dark about it, a while ago I was told of this awesome site, Galbadia Hotel, that has pretty much every available anime and game soundtrack, with the exception of, ironically enough, the Final Fantasy games and movies. I say ironically because Galbadia Hotel is from Final Fantasy, and their banner is made from clips of Advent Children. Check em out anyway, http://gh.ffshrine.org/soundtracks.php?r=3828

Oh and they also have artbooks and mangas, which my friend Alejandro just loves.

HENSHIN!

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 02:46:43 GMT

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You are Knight! People consider you a cold, embittered soul in the beginning. You are definitely wild pure punk material but not without reason. You fight to save those close to you and underneathe the icy exterior is a warm light of humanity, slowly beginning to re-surface thanks to those who care deeply for you.
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Another forgotten birthday

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 05:43:49 GMT

Well as expected, almost no one remembered my birthday, AGAIN. A total of three people remembered for themselves (maybe). I don't count anyone on Facebook who wished me a happy birthday because Facebook tells you when someone's birthday is coming up. Not only that, but a person who is supposed to be like my brother, my best friend from Florida, didn't call. He hasn't called in the past three months, but it wasn't any other day on Monday either.

I'm sure anyone who actually reads this is going "But you don't even wish me a happy birthday." I would, if I was given even the slightest hint that it's anyone's birthday. Just as I would understand it if no one had been aware of my birthday. However, every year prior, I've always said "Yeah it's my birthday tomorrow" and what not, and it's the same time every year, which is also around the time of the State Fair here, so it's not hard to remember. This year I didn't bother trying to remind anyone because honestly, I just don't feel like anyone cares anyway. Take last year for example. I wanted to go to the fair with all my friends on the week of my birthday. First person I go to tell this to is Jesse, who I might add seems to be avoiding me and everyone else or something I dunno. Conversation essentially goes as follows.

Me: Hey, I was thinking we could all go to the fair with it being around my birthday.
Jesse: Well we were already all going on Thursday.
Me: Oh okay, well I'm free Thursday so that sounds good. Where should we meet?
Jesse: I'd have to see if it's okay with Luis first.

That day was either Monday or Tuesday. Most of my friends were at the fair on Thursday, which I did go to. This conversation told me two things. No one even considered inviting me to the fair AT ALL, and apparently the fact that it was my birthday means jack shit, seeing as one person needed to be asked if it was alright that I went to the fair with them. That one person didn't even stay with us half the time, and left early. What the hell? It's my damn birthday. You could at least pretend that means something.

I don't know why I bother making a big deal out of this. No one cares. A maximum of three or four people read my journal, two to three of which only do so when they see an entry in their friendslist and it interests them. I really should just give up on expecting anything from anybody. I give up so much for other people, and for what? I try and hold on to friendships where the other person probably couldn't care less if I dropped off the face of the planet. I sacrifice my hard earned money, my commitment to other things, my parents' trust and respect in me, and it's fruitless. It's like trying to fill an empty water tower with my spit, going and going until my mouth is so dry it hurts.

I'm always the nice guy, letting everyone walk all over me. Just look at my relationships, or attempts at relationships.

With Chandra, I feel like what ever I was able to sacrifice for the relationship was never enough because circumstances outside of my control kept arising in which I couldn't give her the one thing she wanted, which was to see me sooner rather than later. And the tighter I tried to hold on, because I knew she was slipping away, the further she went, until I found myself agreeing to take a break that I didn't want to do, and her going out with a guy who asked her out a week later, and in a month seeing in her blog that she was falling for the guy. I know I did a lot of bad things in my attempt to keep her to myself, but it didn't make it hurt less when things went sour. I don't blame her for anything, and I've already forgiven both her and her boyfriend Jon. This is just to show what I've been going through.

After Chandra, I attempted a long distance relationship with Laura, who I had a crush on back in Florida and who apparently had a crush on me as well. That shit just went from bad to hell in no time at all. She still can't make up her mind as to whether she wants to be friends or wants nothing to do with me. I might add that she did keep flirting with me on the phone and online up until the point I made it clear I wanted a relationship. After that she acted like I had the plague for almost a year.

Morgan was only ever able to see and remember the bad things I did. I could do a million good things but as soon as I screwed up once it was like I was on trial for raping and killing babies or something. God forbid something comes up and I wasn't able to call her or get online. Things are better now, and I know she's like that because I told her I'd wait for her and then I started a relationship with Chandra, but again that doesn't stop me from hurting inside whenever she started up with me again.

Audrey. God this is probably the worst case yet. I'd met Audrey as Lunara Fox online about 8 or 9 years ago. She disappeared soon after we met, never to be seen again it seemed. She then showed up in my chatroom last year, out of no where. She'd presumably been gone due to her sister's death, her abusive boyfriend, etc etc. Anyway, she'd been going out with a guy who was not good for her. Up until recently I'd say he wasn't good for anyone. She tells me the only reason she doesn't break up with him is because the person she wants to be with is already taken. Asking who, she says me, to which I tell her that I wasn't in a relationship and hadn't been for almost a year now. So she breaks it off with Joe, her boyfriend, and gets together with me. Joe precedes to throw an immature shitfit, with the vengeful mind of an evil teenage asshole, and tries to blackmail her. Blackmail fails, but Audrey feels bad because she still cares for Joe yadda yadda yadda. This is when I get a glimpse of just how dishonest and calculating Audrey can be, good intentions or not. Long story short, she cheats on me TWICE with the guy who supposedly made her life hell when she was with him (Joe), I learn of so many lies and whatnot that she tells me, so on and so forth relationship is done with. With this relationship, I not only sacrificed my time and effort, but my sanity and my dignity as well. As I said it took her cheating twice, on top of countless lies, for the relationship to end.

So didn't mean for this to become a rant on my relationships, but oh well.

I feel like it's becoming a growing trend among everyone in the country to only look out for yourself, to gratify yourself in whatever way, and fuck anyone else. If other people happen to take pleasure in your pleasure, that's just a nice side affect. But if they don't, it's no big deal either.

In the words of a great mentor: "You know what REALLY grinds my gears? You America. FUCK YOU."

I keep saying I need to stop being a nice guy, but it's not going to happen. It's my nature. I always put my friends and my love interests above everything else, because I can't stand losing people and I'm always aiming to please everyone but my family and myself. But really, I shouldn't have to stop being a nice guy entirely. I admit I take it too far, but I'm not the one who needs an entire attitude adjustment. My friends need to fucking appreciate what I do and stop acting like I don't matter. And to those who do appreciate me, and who do care, and who do remember me without having to shove my business in your face, thank you so much. To everyone else, heat up those damn hearts of your's before they finally freeze from your coldness.

Do you remember?

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 21:40:35 GMT

Let's see who remembers.

WIRED

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 06:44:00 GMT

So apparently WIRED Magazine published a little rant I made months and months ago when they stated that Dir en grey got no airplay here. I pretty much told them in the initial email that they need to go back to journalism school, learn to do some research. I said how I had a show, Made In Japan, and I played them quite often. Not to mention the fact that I'm not the only Japanese playing FM radio DJ in the nation, heck not even on the east coast. But it's pretty cool that they put me in there. Maybe I'll get some more listeners out of it, ni?

http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/14.10/rants.html

I'm not too fond of the fact that they had to use my real name.

Samuel L. Jackson is...

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 18:07:18 GMT

AFRO SAMURAI

So Laura wants nothing to do with me

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 03:36:43 GMT

Here I thought I was friends with Laura again, after that whole mess from so long ago. I mean it was kinda stated that we both wanted to be friends. I wanted it, I asked her about it, she seemed to think it was fine. But since then, after a few friendly IMs at first, it's been nothing but silence from her, and the one or two messages I'd get were very...un-friendly. So finally I come out and ask if we weren't friends and that if she wanted nothing to do with me to just say so. And so she said so. Why the hell do people do this? I don't get it? I mean she sees me commenting nice things on her profile, like congrats on finding someone special and stuff. Why just sit there and let me live in a lie? For Pete's sake was everything said about growing up, not lying to people, not toying with people just talking to the wall? God. People like this give me no hope for the future. People like this make me think "God is the whole world selfish and full of vile, putrid, venomous hearts that they just think people's emotions are to be stepped on?"

People are assholes. And by people, I mean people like Laura. Thanks for making me feel like shit so many times. I guess once wasn't enough.

Zodiac

Mon, 01 May 2006 22:18:50 GMT

Libra

Your element, Air, lends you grace and charm. You have a sure talent for delicacy and occasionally for nonchalance. You are very flexible and adapt yourself easily to different situations. You like change, novelty, and surprises. Like all the signs of Air you have a deep fear of boredom and routine. But you don't always know how to do what it takes to escape from them.

You love everything which can make life more beautiful or joyful. You adore all kinds of performance, and you also have gifts and talents in these areas. You have an idealistic vision of existence in which everything must be beautiful, life easy, love successful, and happiness perfect. You may therefore occasionally fall from this great height, and then feel yourself to be helpless. Your tendency then is to let yourself go.

Since Venus, the ruling planet of love, is your cardinal planet, love is the most important thing in your life. Love takes first place during your entire existence. You would like everything around you to be peace and harmony, with never a sign of conflict, tension, deception, or violence. You feel this need for love in an extremely sensual manner. You NEED to love, and in order to satisfy this desire you are very focussed on seduction, and you know how to seduce.

Occasionally this gets you in trouble, since you don't always know how to make wise choices. You run the risk therefore of getting involved with people who want to profit from your need for love.

Wow that describes me to a t o_o. Taken from http://avalon.albuquerque.nm.us/zodiac/

XD Hilarious!

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 19:16:25 GMT

I'm sorry but that is just too good to pass up posting. I love ishkur.com!

"MARY MOTHER OF GOD MAKE IT STOP!"

I agree. Candy Ravers are scary.

This tells me not to go to the local raves here in the triangle.

WE'RE ALL GONNA DIE!

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 18:27:59 GMT

Today I discovered that I was given the wrong key for the studio, and no one was able to help me x_x. I was fifteen minutes early getting there, but didn't get to sign on until it was thirty minutes late. In order to get in, after making several phone calls and running down the street, I had to call campus police. But it was worth it I think. I did a really awesome show today, lots of requests (for the show anyway). It was fun! Especially playing some of the stuff I did, like vgtvshow theme songs and the Go Goomba bit from Super Mario Bros. movie. Walk tall! Be proud! Go Goomba!

Yesterday's Show

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 15:13:41 GMT

I was a tad annoyed coming into the station yesterday. First of all, Dr. Digital said he wasn't going to be there, so I planned this whole thing to do on my on, with an hour and a half of my own music, and a laptop to take requests from. I wanted to do this big thing for requests to get listeners involved. Not only was Dr. Digital there, but he brought a friend with him as well. I understand that it wasn't his fault that the event he was going to got rained out, and that it is his show, but it was annoying nontheless. But this wasn't the only problem, oh no. One of the engineers just happened to pick that morning to work on studio problems, and he had to shut down the webcast, which means a good fifteen to twenty listeners who probably would have made requests didn't get to. Then the second hour was just complete mayhem. Dr. Digital didn't care about putting up the playlist, and after 11 things just got hectic for some reason and we ended up not putting in anything. It was just insane and really really bad the way things were handled.

Although I will admit playing the end theme to the Super Mario Bros Super Show and that Japanese Zelda commercial (last song played) was really fun.

Certified!

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 02:37:52 GMT

I am now a certified dj at WKNC. Listeners beware, I am on the air!

Most likely I'll continue doing the Video Game Revolution with Dr. Digital, but I hope to start doing Afterhours or Saturday Night 80s.

Gasp! A journal entry from Fangsie?! A miracle!

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 19:02:04 GMT

Hey all. Well for some reason I actually felt like writing something on LJ. I dunno why just did. Anyways, life has been pretty busy since my last update. I'm an English major now, so no more engineering classes for me. Everyone say huzzah! Speaking of huzzah, I went to the Renaissance Faire this weekend with friends of mine. We were all dressed up in some fashion or another, except Kofu, our friend Made in Taiwan XI. I was in ranger garb, sorta. Had my small sword strapped to my belt, my bow, and my quiver full of arrows. And had at least five people ask me where I got my bow. In other news, in case I haven't supplied this to some of you, I am a DJ for my school radio station, WKNC. I co-host with Dr. Digital every Saturday morning, playing video game music for two hours. I am of course DJ Kidna. Good stuff indeed. I've started applying for summer jobs, haven't heard back from any of them yet. But I have time to wait I guess. Oh and also, Animazement, our state anime con, is coming up in a month and a half, memorial day weekend. I'm going as Dan Hibiki from Street Fighter Alpha. Hisshou! Twill be fun. That's it for now I guess. If anyone more comes up I shall update once more.

New love in my life

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 13:41:36 GMT

Well even though I'm sure no one really reads this thing, I just feel like proclaiming this out to everyone (except my family cause they'll bitch and nag about it). I have a new love in my life, and her name is Audrey. True, she lives further away than anyone I've ever been, or tried to be, involved with, but that doesn't matter to me. I hold faith that things will work out. She was a friend from way back before I met everyone, and though we lost contact over the years, I suddenly find her in my RP chat. MY RP chat. Imagine the odds. So if that doesn't tell you there's something meant to happen, I don't know what does.

The 3 Variable Funny Test

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 14:43:42 GMT

the Cutting Edge
(60% dark, 43% spontaneous, 27% vulgar)

your humor style:
CLEAN | SPONTANEOUS | DARK

Your humor's mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there's something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren't in and of themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top. Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing.

PEOPLE LIKE YOU: David Letterman - John Belushi

If you liked my test, send it to your friends!

The 3 Variable Funny Test
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Oh and also

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:03:17 GMT

Apparently James Doohan, who played Scotty on Star Trek, died last week on the 20th. `Tis a sad day. Next to go is probably the Doc, good ol' "Bones".

Weird dream

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 13:50:24 GMT

Last night I had the strangest dream. I was back in Charlotte, NC. And I was hanging out with my friend Travis, who I haven't seen since sixth grade. But then he was gone. I'd see him now and then but he was ignoring me. So one night I went looking for him and found him. I called out to him but it was like he couldn't hear me. He started walking away and all the street lights would go out behind him. I went to his house the next day and when I finally got to him he talked to me, and I asked him for his number. I went to save his info on my cell, putting in his name, and when I told him to put in his number, he took the phone and when he gave it back to me, instead of a number it said GETTHEFUCKAWAYFROMME, exactly like that. I woke up some time after that.

I think it had to do with me trying to call a bunch of friends last night before I went to bed, and couldn't get in touch with anyone.

So much for my so called friends

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 17:30:43 GMT

None of you, not a single one, even tries to see that I'm doing alright. It's like as soon as I'm offline, I no longer exist. No emails, no phone calls from those who know it. If you guys don't know my email, just comment here, you know how livejournal works. What's worse are my so called friends that live nearby, like you John. I've emailed you once and never even got a response. I could have dead, or have gotten ill, and none of you care at all. I know three people, a total of three people, who care enough to call, one of whom I've never met in person, and all three live 500-600 miles away on oppisite ends of the east coast. Some friends you all turned out to be. I'm almost glad I got grounded from aim and most online activities. Just shows me who really cares.

And so I say my farewells to the friend I once had

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 17:14:46 GMT

Yes I sent Laura one last email, expressing my farewell and well wishes. I just needed to end this chapter in my life somehow, as I must do all chapters in my life, both tragedy and not. So I emailed her the following message.

Well then, since you didn't reply to this last email, I'm to assume that either you did not recieve it, or are ignoring me. Either way, this email is just to say farewell, and despite this last year's worth of trouble, which I might add is due in great part to your dishonesty (I say this only for your benefit, that you might avoid future conflicts with other people such as this), it was nice knowing you. Should you not reply, or simply reply in farewell, this shall be my last email to you, of which I am sure you are more than too pleased to hear. Know only that I only wish the best of you, as I wish the best of all people I know, and that I give you the same offer I give everyone, especially those who choose to leave me behind. I am here should you ever need a sympathetic ear, should you ever have any trouble and have no one else to go to. Well then, I think I have said all I need to. And so I bid you farewell, and a good life to you. Adieu

Christian